Baby Barfield

Baby Barfield is due November 24, 2019

This is what i laid out on the bed for Andrew to see when he got home. (: 

 Here's some random selfies that I took while waiting nervously ALL day for Andrew to get home.

These are pictures of the box we sent to Andrew's parents to tell them. It had the baby barfield bear wearing a onesie that says "Hello Grandma and Grandpa"  in it with the pregnancy tests, confetti, and confetti babies.

As for my family we told them a little more relaxed because it's not their first and they knew it was coming because I tell my family everything lol.

We told my dad by asking him to look at our car to see what's wrong with it and inside the hood we put the pregnancy test.

With my mom..Andrew just snuck it into his sentence saying "yeah it was crazy..we high fived the jazz players and found out lyndsi is pregnant all in one day"

Andrew made a meme to tell our siblings and thought it was hilarious so I just let him do his thing lol

Our first appointment at 9 weeks.

I keep debating whether to mention a little bit of how I feel in this post or not but I'm just gonna do it and keep it real. These blog posts are mostly for me and my memories so I'm gonna share for myself how I feel.

Although a very wanted and intentional pregnancy, I'm terrified. There's no amount of time or anything that can make you feel 100% ready. I'm learning that. There's not really anything anyone can say or do to magically make you feel perfectly ready. And as someone who has a painful confidence when it comes to skills and talents, I'm so afraid of my capabilities, or lack there of, to take care of a child when I still feel like one. There's also the fear of all the things that could go wrong.

But the bottom line is despite all the worrying I'm gonna continue to do because I'm me and the putting myself down I'm gonna do because I'm me, I'm really excited and I'm really grateful. I have an unbelievably great and patient husband. And a super giving and supportive family.

Bring on November!